Apr 092015
My own Oracle

Earlier today, I tell mom that last night I dreamed about Keanu Reeves. “Do you know who he is?” I ask her. “Of course, I know”, she answers. Five minutes later I hear my mom laughing uncontrollably. “What’s going on”, I exclaim. Nothing. No answer, mom still laughing her butt off. “What’s happening”, I repeat my question. Sis then tells me that, while browsing a website, mom got to a video showing Keanu Reeves in the foreground. It was a short scene from the movie Matrix, the part where Neo goes to the Oracle. If you don’t remember or haven’t […]

Mar 032015
One tree hill – exercise the power of your mind, imagination and feelings

Dear Readers, This is the first time that I write down an exercise with the purpose of helping other people. So, I apologize, in advance, if you find it sloppy and so on. However, it is an exercise that I made a week and a bit ago that helped me imagine and feel things. To make this work, all you need to do is to let yourself go. Here it goes. If you are a woman, you are wearing a white dress, knee length. If you are a man, you are wearing a pair of white shorts and a white […]

Jan 232015
"Imagine all the People"

Dear Readers, I’ve often talked about people, since a lot of people have had a great impact over my life. But, to be honest, I’ve been in a love-hate relationship with them since the beginning of my times. The numerous times I wanted to be in the middle of them, enjoying their company… But there were even more times when I wanted to run away from them, as far as possible, preferably in the middle of nowhere. We like to talk about people a lot. We like to put them in categories. We like to catalog them. We like to […]

Jan 012015
"Nothing satisfies me but your soul"

Dear Readers, Today I am going to tell you a story. It is inspired from a song by Jen Titus that a I heard a long time ago in the TV show “Supernatural”. A few lyrics from this song are borrowed. Also, the inspiration comes from the hundreds of minutes of surreal dreams that I’ve been having ever since I’ve lost my sight. Sometimes, I believe that my brain is mismatching reality with an imaginary world with fabulous castles, kings and queens, wars, heroes and adventures. I should add that I remembered about an old photo album posted on Facebook, […]

Dec 222014
My Brain vs. The Computer and The OS

Dear Readers, Ever since my brain was damaged, I became very interested in how this “pretty” organ works and how mine is working, in particular. In nearly all articles that were read to me, the brain is often compared to a computer and unanimously described as an electric network. If this is the case, everyone of us owns a very powerful computer without even knowing. All sorts of associations between my damaged brain and a computer/ an OS come to mind. If my brain is a computer, then I’m functioning on a Pentium 1 Processor, with 126 MB RAM, with […]

Dec 122014
"6 Ft from the Edge"

Dear Readers, “I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking that maybe six feet ain’t so far down”. There are times in life when you go through events that make you, quite literally, feel like you just hit the ground. I once described this feeling as if life kicks you in the butt so hard and pushes you off a tower building. While you can’t stop the fall and wait to hit the ground, you can’t also stop hearing life’s voice laughing behind your back and telling you: “You fool!” Sometimes you would lay there on the pavement, broken […]

Nov 262014
May I Serve You Some True Blood, Ma'am?

Dear Readers, (The Big Red Haired Fox, Ana, keeps telling me that the blog gets more hits and visitors each month, so, I am upping the formula to readers and will talk to you as a whole from now on. Do not feel depersonalized on me now, I care about each one of you, especially if you are not a hit and runner.) The idea of writing about the thick blood issue was seeded in my mind a while ago, but decided to hear another doctor’s opinion on the matter, before posting something. This last doctor confirmed some of my […]

Nov 012014
The Road to Perdition (to Bucharest)

Dear Reader, I named this post as I did because last time I was in Bucharest I nearly lost my life. As you can imagine, I am now in the city with my sister and my mom for more tests, procedures and alternative therapy. It doesn’t feel like perdition any longer, but I still have time to change my mind about that thought. Hopefully not (added later: I haven’t changed my mind). For a while now, my family and I have been thinking about finding better and more open minded doctors to help my case. However, a trip to Bucharest […]

Oct 262014
"A song that no one sings"

Dear Reader, Do you know what the word “vermillion” means? It is a word I a first heard about nine years ago, in a song “Vermillion Pt.2.0”, by Slipknot, but I was never interested in finding out what it means. Until this morning, when I asked The Big Red Head Fox ( Ana) to tell me the definition. Vermillion is an alternative writing for the word vermilion. vermilion= a brilliant red pigment made from cinnabar (mercury sulphide)(Oxford Dictionary) origin. It comes from the Old French word “vermellion”, which was derived from “vermeil”from the Latin word “vermilculus”,the diminutive form of the […]

Oct 202014
"But I like it when I'am spinning in it's Grip"

Dear Reader, I’ll start the “Stuck on Replay” idea with a song by Massive Attack, “Paradise Circus”, that you can hear below. Have you ever been so obsessed over a song that you can’t literally get it out of your mind? In my case, “Paradise Circus” has been just the cup of tea for around 5 years, when I first listened to it on Radio Guerrilla, La Unica Radio con Cojones. So, I will be very high with my words of praise. And, I promise, it is the only time I will do so. Do you know how hard it […]