Sep 122019
 
What if I want to keep my heart open ?

”You are my girlfriend and I seriously need your advice on something” , said John the Wolf to me a few days back . ”I am just about to buy this expensive technology which I think will help me learn more about my body and heal it eventualy . I am veery nervous and excited about this purchase and I need you to tell me whether I need it or not !” , he added . ”Which of the two meanings of the word girlfriend did you refer to when you called me your girlfriend ?” I asked , as […]

Mar 012018
 
Don't reject the Little Boy

Dear Reader, I had the following dream some time ago that I want to mention . I was back to school , sitting at my old desk , surounded by many of my friends , people I know or heard of . We were all adults. Then a man entered the classroom . He was holding a small boy’s hand who seemed to suffer from a slight mental disability . His father asked us not to reject his son and allow him to act freely among us in order to observe the little boy’s behaviour in the context with other […]

Feb 222018
 
My First Steps Into Realm Of Lucid Dreaming

Dear Reader , There is no doubt that I am one of those few very lucky people who enter into the realm of lucid dreaming spontaneously , with absolutely no prior knowledge of this field , no practice and no awareness whatsoever . This is completely my case . Even if I did not show any interest in the ability of lucid dreaming for years and years , I woke myself up all of a sudden experimenting the phenomena of lucid dreaming . To keep things short , I would describe lucid dreaming as the ability of one’s mind to […]

Apr 122017
 
A Candidate To Fall In Love With, Anyone?

The most philosophical conversation I’ve had with the hands fluttering in my eyes I’ve dreamed over 500 times by now was as follows . ” Are You My Subconscious ?” I asked . ” Maybe I am , maybe I am not ” , they answered . ” What are your intentions ? ” ” I want to induce a certain vibratory emotion in your deep and subtle levels of your mind . It is related to the state of sleeping and the state of being awake . I am here to help . ” ” Get my sight back […]

Apr 232016
 
If only...then maybe...

Dear Readers, If there is a thing that I am absolutely sure it will help me get my sight back and that is if I go back to Waterford, Ireland, the place that I lived for 5 months before the stroke that I suffered in November 2013. I thought about this many times, over and over again. What is that thing that I need that could truly help me ? And every time I think about it I get to this point. I loved Ireland and I left Ireland too abruptly. And I honestly mean it when I say I […]

Dec 092015
 
The beginning is the end is the end is the beginning

Dear Readers, It has been quite a long time since I last wrote something. This is the phrase that nearly all my posts start with. I apologize. I am taking back a few of the promises that I made during the last 2 years. Such as “I promise I will write more often”, “I promise I’ll make more videos.”, “I promise I’ll keep you guys updated.” I wasn’t able to keep any of them. And I excuse myself for what it looks like a lack of interest. I’m not lacking anything. It is just that I was not expecting many […]

Aug 072015
 
I am in The Best Spot

Dear Readers, Today, at Jiko, I had quite a nice session with Mihaela, which followed another one that was by far the longest and most intense session so far. This happened yesterday and it lasted approx 2 h and 15 minutes altogether. She and I had a very nice conversation about life, consciousness, spirit and all sorts of other things. “Why is it that you feel the need to tell me about the things that you are going through?”, she asked me. “Let’s not forget I’m still human”, I said. “On different occasions, I’m still led by emotions. I have […]

Jun 252015
 
To write or Not to write

Dear Readers, Since I’ve started Reiki at the end of October 2014, all sorts of unusual and unexpected things have been happening to me. I won’t go into details. Not yet. Mostly because it is theory that I don’t completely understand. Not yet. But what I can honestly say is that I had underestimated the power of the energy transmitted during a Reiki session. There is a bit that is quite important and it is easier to explain. The energy finds the blockages stoked inside my being, which are then surfaced and shown to me so that I become aware […]

Jun 172015
 
I Do Hate Too

Dear Readers, The things that I’m going to write about today are of such intimacy and privacy to me that I cannot believe myself that I decided to write about them. It was often suggested to me that I should talk to a shrink about them, but I refused. A while back, my sister read me an article which underlined the importance and the benefits of writing about different issues, especially during one’s healing journey. During Monday’s reiki session, Miss Rodica, the therapist who has been treating me over the last 4 weeks, asked me how I had been. I […]

Jun 152015
 
The Piano Concert

Dear Readers, It’s been exactly 3 months to this day since my good friend T. last allowed me to play his electric piano. Truth be told, it was a onetime only thing, so I haven’t touched any keys ever since. That is mostly because I have no talent. “I’m not impressed, you are no Beethoven”, T. told me that day. “I’m sorry, but who are you that I have to impress? I don’t even have to impress myself”, I answered wisely. “I am the dragon amongst dragons”, he said. “Oh, dear T., the dragon always gets his ass kicked in […]